When Awareness is Not Enough (Laara's Story)

   Today, I am a healthy, happy, productive woman. It's hard to believe that I was once spending four days a week in bed. That I was once in so much spiritual, mental, emotional and physical pain that life seemed hardly worth the effort.
   I had tried everything I could think of to get myself out of the "pit"; good nutrition, thousands of dollars in counselling, supplements and natural healing methods, with no, or temporary results. Doctors and others in the healing professions were just as puzzled as I was. Some said I would just have learn to live with my symptoms. But something inside me refused to give up.
   Finally, in 1986, I discovered Core Belief Engineering. The pieces of the puzzle began to fall into place. I learned that I had two major belief systems in conflict with each other. One part of me held a belief system that I, or anything I did, was "never good enough". This program drove me to over-achieve and go away beyond sane limits. A second part of me held a belief system that "if I was successful, I wouldn't be able to handle it". The drive and the motivation in one and the fear of success in the other were at constant war with each other. The conflict alone created exhaustion. The exhaustion, in turn, increased the physical, emotional and spiritual pain.
   The belief systems also held other beliefs, such as "If I am not good enough, then I don't deserve love, friendship, success or any other kind of abundance." So I sabotaged any attempt from life to give to me. I had a hard time accepting love. That I had any friends at all was a testament to their compassion and ability to see the inner me. Most people sensed my lack of response and thought I didn't like them, so they withdrew. Then the part of me that believed I wasn't good enough said, "See, I told you, you are not good enough!" The "never good enough" belief system also created distrust of myself which resulted in some poor decisions, again adding to the distrust of myself.
   But awareness was not enough. Changing the energy held by these beliefs to support positive life-enhancing ones was the key to the puzzle. The beliefs had been there for a very long time and had lots of supporting evidence and so they needed transformation at a deep core level. It was not until these transformations were complete, and I gave myself total permission to be happy and successful, that anything else was allowed to help. Only when I discovered and reclaimed for myself the inner self that my friends could see, was progress allowed in any other area. And help was direly needed, especially with my health. Years of stress and inactivity had taken a great toll. For me, traditional Chinese medicine was most instrumental in healing my body at a very deep level.
   Core Belief Engineering and Chinese medicine then formed positive loops - the more I believed in myself, the more help was allowed, and the better I felt, the more I believed in myself. Helping to facilitate wonderful changes in others is so exciting that it now provides the motivation to continue.

LAARA K. BRACKEN, B. Sc.
Certified Master Practitioner (24 YEARS EXPERIENCE)
Core Belief Engineering
A Kelowna Counselling Service
Kelowna (250) 763-6265
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